Fairies are real

i love someone...

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 00:09:12 GMT

I love someone it hurts... but it hurts even more not knowing how he feels about me... i try so hard not to let myself get cooped up in thse feelings about max... but i don't know what to do!!!!!! A lot of times i think, yeah, he might like me too, and a lot of other ppl think so too... but i wanna know for sure!!!!!! gah!!!!!!! hehe... some people say i should just wait and see what happens.. other say i should kick his butt for making me feel like i did... what do u think i should do?
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blah

Sun, 07 Nov 2004 23:02:39 GMT

tired... bored... what else is new? Max is a jackass though... omg!!!!! i don't wanna have to tell you the whole story... lets just say he hurt me and i had to find out the wrong way... so now he's gonna fucking pay... but anyways... homecoming was awesome... had a really fun time.. and the guy i've liked for a long time too was there and i got to spend some alone time with him so that was cool... but now it sux... cause once again i have no clue how he feels about me... as always, i think he might like me, but i don't wanna risk it ya know... can any of you tell me what to do? comment to be added... please

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 01:38:39 GMT

okay, okay... so i know i'm always changing my mind about the guys i like.... but thing with this one is the fact that i've liked this guy for a long time... but i've just now started to realize just how much i do and the fact that he might like me aswell... at least based on what a lot of people are saying. Who is this mystery man you ask? None other than Max Goldman. Hehe.. i like him a lot... and the reason i'm so happy right now is because on saturday... james threw a surprise party for kelly and max was there. So we all played truth or dare and chandese knew that i like him... so she dares me to kiss him. And might i just say... he is a good fucking kisser!!!!! hehe... but as i was saying... so we kissed but than it seemed as if he was ignoring me the rest of the night... but he was still looking at me a lot. So the whole weekend i kept wondering to myself what his true feelings were... so today at school, since i have health with him, we had to go to a different class and i was able to sit right across from max. And through out the period we were swapping notes with each other until we came to the subject about the party... when we were talking about it he wrote... "yeah... chandese gave good dares... hehe" and i responded in "in what way? what do u mean?" then he said "you know what i mean" and i wrote "hehe... yeah... you're a really good kisser" and he answered "yeah so are you... i liked it" OMG!!!!!!!!! hehe i was sooooo excited. A lot of people are saying he does like me... but i'm not sure.. if he does i hope something will happen!!!! hehe

by the way...

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 22:08:04 GMT

oh.. i forgot one thing... sry for any inconvenience i may have caused any one with my last entry from yesterday.. i was in a depressed mood and shit... i'm a Gemini... what do u expect?!!!!! hehe - coment to be added
I DO BELIEVE IN FAIRIES!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe

i REALLY like someone

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 22:00:52 GMT

ok.. so there's this guy i know who just happens to be one of my closest friends brother in 12th grade. And, of course, i'm like in love with him right now. Kelly (his sister) is gonna talk to him to see if he'd be interested in going out with me... i sure hope he says yes!!!! hehe.. i know i'm weird.. so shut up all ya'll who think i'm being retarded! hehe.. jk... OMG!!!!! Halloween is tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe

if i die before i wake... i know ya'll won't give a fuck and will eat me like a peice of steak

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 01:09:39 GMT

nothing to do... at all!!!!!! i was supposed to go to the commons tonight with this awesome guy and one of my good friedns, but no... SOMEONE (who will be remained unames) had to go about not making it clear exactly how we were gonna get together.. so now i'm stuck here at home with nothing to do just waitig for it to finally be Halloween because it is the most awesome holiday ever! And yes... IT IS A HOLIDAY NO MATTER WHAT ALL YA'LL SHIT HEADS MAY THINK!!!!!!!!! hehe.. jk. And theres this guy i like but its all retarded and we all would know the answer if i were to ask him out... "sorry, but ur not pretty enough"... so sad, but true. Lets think about it... the past guys i've gone out with in the last year or maybe two... didn't even give a flying rats ass about me! take cody for example... cody... if ur reading this... i know u never liked me... no matter what u say. And being bi don't help either! gah!!!! why does it even matter... i might as well just come a nun now while i'm at6 it!!!! (catching breath) at least halloween is almost here!!!!!

guess what...

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 23:59:49 GMT

Guess what... I'm bi!!!!!!! haha... no joke... i swear.. i kinda always was i think... but now its just starting to get to me... hehe But yeah... i'm bi...
today was boring... not much happened... i love mitchelle!!!! hehe But not as much as Tobey Maguire!!!!!!! hehe... well... maybe they're the same... hehe but t doesn't even matter... he most likely doesn't feel the same... so i'll just shut up right now b4 i get hurt! hahaha
I love you all!!!!!!!!!!

i'm a cutter

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 23:33:45 GMT

i don't know if a lot of my friends read this... but i just need to start telling people... i'm a cutter. I know what you might be thinking at this time... "why on earth would she do something like that? She has no reason to... what a freak..." and hopefully you aren't thinking the last thing i just said... and no, there really is no explaination to why someone would do that. And i don't want to get into details on why i did... lets just leave it at, that i had a horrible experience, and all the pain i had bottled up inside was too much to bare... so to be able to see that pain and make it real (meaning cutting myself) was relieving... but only for an hour or so untill i realized what an idiot i was to do such a thing. I just hope you all can understand... its been hard for me to keep it to myself and all ik want is for people to except it and not think of me as a weird freak who's goth and shit... thats not the issue. But, yes, i am a cutter... but i'm getting better... now all i need is my frineds to help me.

should i go to malibu high?

Wed, 06 Oct 2004 01:49:36 GMT

when i was going to malibu high... there was this guy that i REALLY liked... nad now he's saying he wants to go out with me but he also wants me to go to malibu high... but i can't, i live too far away. I don't know what to do. And u don't understand... this guy is fucking hot!!!!!!!! what should i do?

hyperness

Tue, 24 Aug 2004 00:40:58 GMT

I'm hangin with matt and heather, don't want school to come, heather dyed her hair, its awesome... bright red!!!!!!!hehe... bored yet hyper all at the same time as always. bye bye! I do believe in fairies!

New LJ

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 06:45:56 GMT

This is Maeliss Stemmann... I believe in fairies, i do, i do! Comment to be added. Love love <3